What to Do When I’m Weary From Doing Good
My eyes are heavy this afternoon. I’m trying to focus, praying for focus. My diffuser with peppermint mingles with my coffee and candle. The perfect circumstances and I can’t make my mind take the right steps. Usually, I do these things:
- I either stop everything and turn on Netflix.
- Or, I get up and work on everything I’m NOT supposed to work on. Facebook. Instagram.
I’m tired means I’m drained. Empty. Not full of anything. Do you ever feel that way? Like you possibly couldn’t make another decision? If someone asked you to do something, you might break out in sobs? I’ve felt like I could cry for a week, but no tears have come.
When I read Psalm 37:3-8 earlier, I wondered: do I have what it takes to really do this Christian-thing? Isn’t this just MORE stuff to do?
Serving God feels like work sometimes. I’m so weary I want to just give up. Circumstances outside of my control take me down a path of weariness…..which plant seeds of bitterness, fear, and anger.
There seems to be a lot of action words in those verses in Psalm 37. I like Psalm 46:10 better: Be still. When I took a closer look at Psalm 37, I found something interesting about those actions words.
God’s commands are to calm my heart, not cause chaos. The actions words are: Fret not (don’t worry!), Trust, do good, dwell, be faithful, delight, commit (allow my way to be directed by God), be still, wait patiently, don’t be angry, and again: wait.
When I look at that “list” of things “to do” – it doesn’t add burdens to my soul, it frees it. What do all of those things, wrapped up into one word mean? Surrender. Give God control. Abandon my plan for how my life (or my day) is going to go.
Practically speaking, it means I will let God be God, and realize I’m not. In verse 31, David says: “The law of his God is in his heart.” It doesn’t mean: STUDY – STUDY – STUDY. It means, place God’s word is the center of our hearts.
“The LORD helps them and delivers them; because they take refuge in him.” – Psalm 37
When I am so tired, I can always take refuge in God. When I am so exhausted, I can’t even write out my prayers, I know God hears my whispers as I lay down for a nap instead.
Doing good is grace-filled and doesn’t give us grievances. When I am weary of doing good, let me remember: God is calling for us to enter into a life of rest and relationship, not busy to-do checklists.
Sometimes trust means stepping out and doing a hard thing.
Sometimes dwell means to enter into a deeper relationship with Jesus.
Sometimes delight means to say no.
Sometimes faithfulness looks a little boring.
Sometimes commitment takes time.
Let our hearts not fail in doing good, because our God gives us rest in the midst of our hustle.
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Galatians 6:9
O Father, who sees my weary heart, be close to me in my tears. Although my heart is heavy, your burden is light. Let me lean into your strength, and let my weary heart rest. Knowing you’ve got this. Let my heart hope in the God who sees, the God who provides, the God who puts his banner of love over me. Let me hope not in the future to “get better” but that you hold the future and you are good. Give me the wisdom and strength to do the good work you have called for me today. Let me not worry about the strength for tomorrow. Let me hope in you today. Amen.
He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. Isaiah 4;29