Recently I asked my husband, “will I always be sad?” There are so many things in our life (and family) that we are grieving. Unseen things. Yes, they are seen by God . But the sadness often feels so heavy. So deep. So lasting. The colder weather, the longer nights makes this season especially hard. We held this grief during the summertime, but during the day I could go to the pool with my youngest two children and sit in…
On my knees, beside my bed, I closed my eyes and wished life was different. I prayed, asked God to work, and intervened. But my circumstances stayed the same. I felt the sadness creep into my very soul that night. The next morning, even with the rising of the sun I struggled to see God’s mercies. Sadness makes me feel invisible. As a type-A, eldest daughter with five children, a busy husband, and lots of responsibilities, I don’t have time…
For the past few weeks I’ve gotten into the habit of walking the dog again. After dropping the kids off at school, I come home, grab the leash, and the very energetic dog. Together we walk the same path every morning. Up and down the hills of my neighborhood, I never take my phone or listen to music. The only sounds I hear are the insects, a random lawn mower, and the cars going to work on the main road. …
Anxiety keeps me up at night. Tears usually follow. When I am overcome by feelings of fear and uncertainty, I find that sleep rarely comes easily. Instead, I lay awake with thoughts that run away. In those moments of worry, stress, and pain I know I need to abide in Christ especially. But. My faith feels weak. I don’t know where God is, and I wonder if He truly does love me or wants me to abide in Him. Yes,…