Ok. I’m going to be honest: mommy-ing is hard, and I’ve only been doing it for (almost) nine years. This summer I’ll become a momma of 5 kids. FIVE. I knew I would have a big family as a girl, but I didn’t know how big. (We leave for China this summer to bring home our sweet boy. Click here to be on the mailing list for updates!) I definitely didn’t foresee adoption as part of my story, but I’m…
What do you do when you feel like you can’t? Can’t get it all done. Can’t discipline consistently. Can’t get that stupid laundry completely done. Can’t make dinner on time (or without burning it). Can’t…… With Mother’s Day next week I feel like I’m looking a little more closely at my mothering (or lack there of). I think the most guilt I feel is related to being a mom. I feel guilty for choices I made as a young college…
Mother’s Day is just around the corner, what will your children remember about you, momma? I was laying on the couch trying to nap the other day and I had a flashback to my own childhood. As my sweet babies played quietly (or not so quietly, let’s be honest) during nap time, I remembered my mom took a lot of naps growing up. Everyday in the afternoon she would go to her bedroom (lock the door) and take a quick…
The fear comes at night when the lights turn out. I can feel the darkness as a tangible sadness. It feels real, the darkness of depression. Sometimes it feels like a weight on my chest. Other times it feels like a heavy fog, clouding my thoughts. Most of the time I can’t breathe. Under the covers, I could feel my legs but couldn’t move them. The physical darkness of my bedroom suffocates me and I feel the air trapped in…